So growing up, I was very adamant about thinking all Christians were bad people, especially because I thought they spread hate instead of love. And so in my mind, I thought that I should use the book they're basing everything off of against them.
I had a ship, and I was sailing that ship and I could see the lighthouse there, but I ignored it. The lighthouse of security - security in the Lord Jesus, that He is guiding you wherever you go. He never left me.