I started looking into Life Groups but because of my anxiety, depression and severe panic attacks, I thought, "I need to pray about this. I'm learning how to pray about this."
Within a three year period, I lost three very influential men in my life. But instead of turning to Christ, I turned 180 degrees away and turned completely into myself.
I always thought I had to be better, do more, push harder to be that "person" that God would OK and I've realized that there's nothing I can do. He loves me anyway.